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The Intrusive Rages of My Abusive Older Sister

When I was thirteen, my twenty one year old sister was sitting on my bed and casually talking with me as I put away my clean laundry.  But when I placed my boxer shorts into a drawer and closed it, … Continue reading

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“I Just Want You To Be Happy!” And Other Manipulative Lies of My Abusive Mother

When I was a teenager, my mother exclaimed to me many times “I just want you to be happy!”  Yet she didn’t want that enough to treat me with kindness, respect my boundaries and provide me with a good start … Continue reading

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The Roller-coaster And The Injection: On Patterns Of An Abusive Family

Recently I was waiting for my companion outside the local clinic when a woman walked out with her young daughter who had just been vaccinated.  The mother was  laughing very loudly and saying in a mocking tone “Can we do … Continue reading

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Seeing Myself Outside Of the Frame

One day when I was fourteen my parents came home from work and announced that we were going to see a therapist. When we arrived, the first thing my mother did was pull out my yearbook picture from when I … Continue reading

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The Last Time My Mother Sexually Abused Me

Recently the article ‘Was My Mother A Cougar?‘ (yes!) took me to a very uncomfortable place, back to the beginning of my current arc.  Because the way I uncovered my first substantial flashback of incest last June was by starting … Continue reading

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Measuring My Self Worth, Then and Now.

Recent holidays meant treating myself to (and receiving from my partner) new clothing over the internet from my favorite store.  When my order arrived, everything fit well except for one pair of pants that despite being “my size” were slightly … Continue reading

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Creatures In The Forest Of Memory…

When I was a child, the back and side yards of our house bordered on a hilly stretch of forest that went on for miles in all directions.  At sixteen, I had a particularly vivid nightmare that has never left … Continue reading

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