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How Bodywork Retraumatized Me

It’s been over a year and a half since I stopped working with an acupuncturist, but it was only recently that I’ve been able to understand how much harm his treatments actually caused me due to his lack of professional … Continue reading

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I Don’t Need Time Travel To Establish My Worth

The past several months have been very intense and painful for me due to the healing work that my process has provoked all throughout the holidays, my birthday and then hitting the one year anniversary of confronting my abusive ex-family. … Continue reading

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STD’s After Sexual Abuse; Forced To Keep The Secret

When I was 17 I lived through three hellish months, which involved excessive nightly itching the cause of which I finally realized (via the internet) was crabs.  This diagnosis meant that I could no longer ignore my problem but when … Continue reading

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When I Really Can’t: My Trauma, My Body, My Life

The past two weeks have been filled with flashbacks of newly uncovered memories that were very difficult to deal with.  I’ve had nightmares, lost sleep and entire days due to the pain as I worked through it and eventually figured … Continue reading

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The Perversity of Sexual Abuse Vs. A Child’s Body

My older sister once waxed nostalgically about how when I was three or four years old my mother spent a year alone at home with me “and she knew all the songs from your cartoons and you would sing them … Continue reading

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The House I Didn’t Remember

Recently my mind sent me an invitation to a memory; I received an image of a pink ball bouncing on a driveway, and heard a voice calling out.  I was five years old, and playing on the lot of a … Continue reading

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On What is “Better,” Or Should Have Been…

This week I had a flashback that filled out a half-memory from kindergarten.  We were told to lay down on our floor-mats for nap-time, and I resisted that day, giggling and talking with another boy  until the teacher intervened.  Outside … Continue reading

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